My main goal for this piece was to break away from the full palette of colors in the previous work. After that exercise, I knew that my knowledge and experience with color was not where it should be. I’ve learned that color is strongly influenced by its surrounding colors, so the organization of my color usage is what I needed to figure out. I decided to focus on smaller steps, such as using gradual changes in values. Also, using complimentary colors. Practicing these elementary principles will help me in my future adaptations of the rorschach series. Other things I considered were graphic shapes in contrast to the organic rorschach, also asymmetrical composition in contrast to the vertical symmetry of the rorschach. I hoped to use more simple characteristics to make the work less heavy on the viewer, but to me it’s still busy.
Back to the use of color, hues can be quite deceiving to our naked eye, two identical colors can look so different with a warm or cool surrounding. It’s even hard to convince yourself they’re the same color even if you know it’s true. It’s basically an illusion, which is fascinating to me. As conscious and in-tune we think we are in reality, there are things in this universe that play tricks on us. What can we believe and why will we believe it? It all ties back into the theme of perception. What do we tell ourselves and what is the truth? In my opinion, art is subjective and the one truth that matters lies within your consciousness. Some people view art so objectively, thinking that it represents what it is. For example, if someone painted a fruit bowl. They see it as a fruit bowl and nothing else. But what I appreciate in art, is that it brings you thoughts that would never have reached you prior to the experience. To me that fruit bowl would make me think of the natural pigments of plants and the amazing flavors of each one. When observing a real fruit bowl vs. painting, these senses are similar, but not the same. Somehow, the painting can tell us much more. But that depends on how much the viewer wants to listen.
This discovery of deception, subjectivity, perception and illusions in art really connects to me as an artist. I hope to use art to bridge these ideas into real life. Exploring more about the human condition. What thoughts can be transferred through my work and why the fuck does it matter. I’ve come to realize the labor of being an artist is hard, just like any other occupation in life. But what’s the point of going to school, doing all these things, if I don’t know how to make it matter. I need use the things I learn for a purpose. It’s easy to have a job doing things that already have set guidelines and consumers like children’s books or a clothing line. But in my life I hope to find something more significant and precious. My fear in life is to put all of my efforts into something that doesn’t matter. To waste the privileges I’ve been given and not create something greater than someone without privileges. I’ve always been a lazy person, inconsiderate, and pretentious. But one quality I’ve gained in the past two years is being true to myself. Keeping track of what makes me a shitty person, a great person, what makes me grow, what makes me unhappy, and why. I can’t fix my life but I can be aware of what comes next and prepare for a change. But somethings work out or they don’t.